Useless

It's so frustrated to see how a person is secretly hoping from you but just can't tell you about it, meanwhile you already know about that and just can't simply tell em to let their feeling out.
It's frustated to know that both of you just can't do anything about it and just continue to hope for someone to walk out first. That's all just useless. In the end, both of you will gradually lose your hope and dont get what you really want. It'll turn out to be an untouchable dream...

Jembatan

Timbul sebuah rasa yang awalnya hanya mengira akan bertepuk sebelah tangan

Namun, ternyata jauh dari aku menyadarinya, ia sudah lama memperhatikan

Bukannya terlalu percaya diri

Tapi begitulah feeling ku berkata

Semakin aku menyadari kami sama sama saling memperhatikan satu sama lain

Hati ini lalu bertanya kenapa aku dan kamu tak bisa jadi kita?

Apakah kesalahan ku?

Atau karena tak ada yang mampu melangkah terlebih dahulu?

Melewati jembatan pemisah antara kita

Aku ragu untuk mengambil langkah lebih dahulu

Begitu juga dia

Aku bisa melihat keraguannya dari kejauhan

Jika tak ada yang mau mulai melangkah

Kapankah kita akan bertemu?

Kapankah bisa melewati jembatan pemisah ini?

근양

I don't know how long I must go through all of this struggle, really, everything just got messier than it has to be. Just to be one of the medical student alone it is already hard enough, plus no one can understand you and just make anything go bad. I dont know if it is all come from me or what, but really, no one understand and just make the wound go worst...

How can they make me look like I'm the sinner? How come that they made me look like I'm the cause of all this shit? No one can answer that, I know that everyone have their own circumstance and their own problem, but me? Do you think that i dont have any problem so you can add anything that suddenly becoming my fault? Hffffff

내가 근양 화나고싶어, 근대 어떻게? 누구랑? 어디서? Hffffffff 진자 한숨 밖에 안나와... 내가 진자 나쁜 애인가? 아니면 왜? 

그리고 진자러 내가 사랑빠지고십다... 근양...